Great article Semyon! I can certainly relate. I think, ultimately, most of us have a choice between a challenging life and a boring one. All of my heroes chose the former and all the uninspiring people I have met chose the latter. Paradoxically enough, I believe as long as we are challenged by life, we are on the right path. The trick is to go forward one minute at a time and dwell as little as possible in the past or in the future.
Best wishes in your endeavors!